Everyone just needs to be HEARD.

Scenario 1: TRYING/ATTEMPTING real hard to understand and grasp the gist of a really hard chapter in the managerial econs and here comes someone, walking into your room talking away, illustrating some incident that she came across that really pissed her off. Despite the fact that I wasn't keen on listening(not at all) and she totally missed my annoyed face. (ok. that's my mom.)

Scenario 2: The hardworking granny, cleaning the house. She brings the mop into the room, and started mopping away at somewhere REALLY CLOSE to you while you were mugging. and she starts telling you stories that took place nearly 5 decades ago, remembering every single detail even down to the crack on the wall in her house back in china.

This sparks something in me. Occassionally, you just wish that someone is there to listen to you, even for once. Not doing anything at that moment and just CONCENTRATING on whatever that you will say. and you, willing to contribute, to pour your woes out.

I'm thinking how sad it would be you know. When you have all the unhappy stuff all bottomed up, it just keeps building on, gets fuller by the day. Up to some point, when it's at the brim, you just break down. Like major breakdown and that would be really scary. I guess that also accounts for some of the patients opposite my block. Well what I'm trying to say is, don't ever wait for that day to come! Do something about it. Talk to someone, communication is the basis of any kind of realationship. and once it's all out, it feels REALLY GOOD. Like you a totally new changed person better than before. haha!

I'm really thankful that I have friends who will be there for me. To listen to my grumbles and offer their advice or simple... just being there for me.

Yes. Just being there.

There's no need for comforting words, no need to think of tricks to cheer me up.

Just simply being there to offer a shoulder, a listening ear or even a hug will do.


and that's a big thanks to you MICHELLE TAN, ALL MY LOVELY FRIENDS & of course MY ULTRA COOL MUM.


Updates:

YES. 1 down 3 more to go! Next week is the ultimate killer weeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk. ME and MACRO, 2 combo at ONE GO. Way to go FJJ! The comforting part is, I have endlesss parties packed to the brim till the end of the month to keep me going. Yes. Attending parties even though I'm in the midst of exams. Taking the big risk as it's all 21st birthday parties. It's such an important stage in life, there's no way I'm missing it! Afterall, I'm just risking the dinner hours. Rush there late, eat, talk,mingle then rush home. LOL!

I'm way into some cool retro songs recently. They keep me going!!!
Songs like: Come on Eileen, Sweet Child O Mine, Mysterious Girl, How far is heaven, Suddenly I see, Cool.


Loves,
FJJ

Sweet suffering.

YUP. It's that time of the year again! Examination dates drawing nearer and nearer, time SPEEDS through when you want it to crawl. HAHA!

Same environment(not situation!), lots more to study, HUMID HOT weather, pressure building up. As usual.

One thing that is lacking, is the C-O-M-P-L-A-I-N-T-S.

Yup. I'm not complaining this year!!!! Having realised that this is the 2nd last time I get to enjoy the life of a student. (Final year coming sept) I really need to just ENJOY and EMBRAcE the whole process!

Hence the title of sweet sufferings, hee.

It's still the midnight cramming, missing lots of going out, the discipline to stay home and mug. It's tough at times but I take it ALL IN.

I Can't wait for the end of my papersssss! Was sooooooooooo worried initially that exam dates will EAT into my 21st. but NOPE!!!!! I'm looking forward to the smell of FREEDOM on 20th May. That's when I get to meetup with all my dearies. :)

I will WORK HARD!

MISSING ALL MY FRIENDS.

loves,

FJJ

10 ways to HAPPINESS.

I'm one who strongly believes in self-awakening process, firmly believeing in inspirational messages and quotes to motivate and encourage myself.

I have this note that my srjc form teacher (also my FAVOURITE form teacher EVER :)))))) ) She loves to write notes of encouragement to us, her form class. There's one that she wrote among the many several that I always bring along with me. It's in my daily journal.
It says:

Awakening.

Be Compassionate.

Give hope in times when you feel there is none in sight.

Motivate yourself and stimulate self-improvement.

Be sensitive and tap into your own versitility.

Well, it seems that recently I've met some setbacks. and yes the Little-miss-happy-silin WAS feeling sad for awhile. But well if you know her ENOUGH, hahaha, she bounces back pretty quickly.

and what's the remedy you may ask?

I came across the 10 ways to happiness on the sunday papers (the chinese one) and coincidentally, many of the things mentioned was what I have always been DOING!

Here goes:

10 ways to HAPPINESS.

1. Do not be angry.

don't get into fights, don't quarrel. Instead, thrash it out, talk over the issue CALMLY.

(that's SO ME. I don't even remember when was the last time I got angry. HAHA! I prefer to reason things out.)

2. To share the best things that happened each day with your love ones.

(ME! I just love to share all the interesting incidents with all my love ones like almost immediately. HAHA. And for some reasons, there's always interesting things going on around me!)

3. LAUGH OUT LOUD

(HAHA! I'm easily tickled. I just laugh at the slightest silliest things. and it always feels good. Hearty laughter, it just totally brightens up my day!)

4. Do more *cough cough* with your partner.

(Well, I have nothing to contribute!! LOL)

5. Listen to your favourite songs.

(I must thank my friends for this. Si Lin is blessed with lovely friends who always share their songs with her!! This totally works wonder on me! When I'm bored, I need a chirpy and strong bass song to inject some enthusiasm in me. When I need to relax and just STONE out after too much work/studying, the soothing voices of Olivia Ong etc totally shed the burden off my shoulders. AND AND AND, movie OSTS, it reminds me of the sweet scenes from that particular movie!! )

6. Put down all your burdens before moving on.

( I believe in giving each case/problem a proper verdict. Whenever I'm being put in this kind of situation, yes I'll dwell in the sorrows for a short while. Then I'll think through and I'll always try to put myself in another angle to look at the problem, there's always something to bring away frm it. Be it a precious lesson or some positive thoughts that you have never notice before.)

7. Say the magic word: I love you!

(Haha. No need to explain too much. I always tell my love ones how much I LOVE THEM! Express my love THAT openly. hee. You have to you know, cause I don't want to regret only :) when it's too late. )

8. Give Hugs

( I once read this somewhere, that humans were created with extended hands so as to give HUGS. Give hugs to love ones, embrace a hug sincerely. That always makes me feel good. Haha. It's like an assurance, the shelter after all the storms that you've been through.)

9. Cheer someone up

( Help to brighten up someone's day! There have been a report that says that people generally feels happier when they spend $$ on others. Stop by a bookshop to get a card or note or a small little gift for your friend! WHAT are you waiting for?! SHOWER ME WITH GIFTS! hee.)

10. Occasionally, flip through your old photos.

(I do that sometimes, to look at the photos. They capture the moment you see. My happy childhood, my old house, my carefree primary school days, secondary and JC too. and also people and places that no longer exist. The only way that they truly stay is in those photos and the wonderful memories that will always be in my heart. :) )

Well, so here you have it. The 10 ways to happier days! Haha. According to me, there are actually more than 10 ways you know, I feel that all these just serves as a direction. Ultimately, it's down to the individual, YOU. How you choose to live your life each day.

I've chosen mine! :)))))))))))))))))))))

loves,

FJJ

I miss my "WeWillBeFriendsForeverJustYouWaitAndSee" Friends.

It's always in moments like this.

When the cramming for exams period begins, I miss my friends. Perhaps it's always in times like this where memories of our O'level cramming sessions float into my mind. How we would always send smses to encourage each other, NOT TO GIVE UP.

My dear friends, I know we are going through the same at the moment. (although you will all end earlier than me and Yanen)

NONEtheless, let's preservere! We can do it!!


this also goes out to the the MEANIE ACCOUNTANT, jiayou! and no matter what, just know that I'll be here k. :)

Stop blasting your music on HANDPHONES.

Ok. It's 2.47am now according to my lappie clock and I can't SLEEP.

Must be the late night sleeping from the last few nights, hence the attempt to get some beauty sleep tonight was unsuccessful.

This puts me in an irritated MOOD hence the best opportunity now to share with my readers this VERY ISSUE that I'm totally irritated with recently.

You see, I'm sensitive to all sounds perhaps due to the fact that I used to learn music hence the sensitivity. I get annoyed by repetitive sounds (water dropping, clipping on pens, hammering etc) and noise pollution (reads: music blasting from handphone).

I'm not one who have temper but these are one of the few things that IRRITATES me.

I treasure personal space, hence it gets on my nerves when people invade that privacy of mine. On normal circumstances, I put up with it. But recently, I see a rising trend of people blasting music from their handphones.

URHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

This is not right. Especially when it's on public transports like buses. I don't understand the rational behind blasting your music like THAT. Perhaps you have a big heart and wish to share your unique taste of music with the rest of the passengers abroad - the problem is, most handphones doesn't come with good speakers. Hence the music that comes out normally transforms into unaudible NOISE. It's bad quality and disrupts my train of thoughts. (you see, I go deep into thinking whenever I'm in the bus).

The same goes for those that plays TECHNO. I can literally faint infront of you. You like it and that's fine with me, but punishing me to listen with you is WRONG of you. and and and. Haven't they heard of this invention called earphones?! Please! Go get earphone and blast it to yourself.

Perhaps, they should have signs in places with public transport to band people from blasting music from their handphones.

ok. Now I feel better.

loves,
FJJ

The ART of touch screen phones.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I've finally changed my phone to Samsung F480. (after getting stuck to the "smartphone" for gazillion yearsssssssss!) It's a touch screen phone, something that I have been eyeing since the moment it came out. This is definitely IDIOT PROOF. haha

Well, since I've started using the phone (which is from yesterday onwards), I have actually lin3wu4 some life philosophy frm it. My touch screen, it has to be handled with the utmost care, TLC lest i leave scratches or markes and I have to be PATIENT. yes this is the KEYWORD.

I was never a patient girl, when I think of something I would get it done straightaway. There's only THAT few things that can capture my attention for a long span of period. (longer then 5mins is considered record breakingggg.) HAHA. First is my baby- piano, I can sit infront my piano for HOURS. Just to honor my skill or make sure that I perfect that piece. Second, its my CURRENT PHONE. Oh gosh, I realised I became so patient now! Do it gently, with much care less it hangs or smth. HAHAHA.

This is pretty interesting to me.

2nd random thought of the day:

While shoving the coins into my wallet, I accidently saw the year that the coin was made. 1985. WOW. I have seen even coins made earlier than this. The point is, it gets me wondering, how many pair of hands have these coins came through before it reaches me. It could be someone REAL famous like LKY or some pop star or some prison convicts or jailbird etc. Hee. Which is probably why, $$ is considered the most dirties things. Literally DIRTY, you can never imagine the amout of germs that's being passed on to the next person handling the $$.

haha but nonetheless, I think of the stories that came with the coins. The many small nitty gritty things that happened that revolves around the coins.

Perhaps 10years down the road, this coin may eventually come back to me.
'What goes around, comes around." :)



P.s:
WHEEE! I'm going to Singapore ARts Museum(SAM) tomorrow! For the exhibition of the Kangxi emperor, his belongings, scriptures that he wrote personally will all be up for showcase. I NEED to catch it!!

ok. Off to lalaland. Need to MUG.


loves,
FJJ

Mr J.

Oh my OH MY!!

I was at Jason Mraz's concert last night. It was awesome. BEYOND WORDSSSS.


It's different from the other concerts, live performances that I've seen. You see, his band has been with him for years so there's this rapport and connection between them. They know exactly what Jason is doing and how to go along with him.

His concert is OH-SO-FUN!!

It lasted for nearly 2 hours, there's not a single milisecond that I feel like dozing off. (coz I usually will, even in my favourite Phamtom of the OPERA.) I am so glad that he sang most of my favouritessssss. He engages with the audience, he plans suprises here and there. He could have just STAND THERE and sing you know. But there was this unexpected surprise element in his performance. Like his 3-botak-man trumpet group, one second they were on the stage, the next they are somewhere in the audience! Or Jason's wonderful voice, he can do miracles with ITTTTT. Range from real high to real low tones, and most of all, its all pitch perfect when he sings. Just like what we hear from his recordings, just that it's LIVE. It's not the same you know, hearing it live, experiencing it face-to-FACE.

I like the bahamas-beach-echo-african feeel in the way he and his band sings. HAHA. I have no idea what kind of style is this. Just that it reminds me of the white sand beaches, water thats blue in color, everyone in white with nice and beautiful glass beach houses and I'll be sitting on one of those pool chairs sipping my favourite (Mojito). YUP. That kind of feeling.

It's sincere too. How he sings it truthfully( HAHA. Familiar ar.). And the very reason that I support him, all his songs and acts are base on one influence: LOVE. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

It's seriously not enough. I need MORE OF Mr JASON MRAZ!

sidenote:

I was there with tham and her two friends. Our sector was not as spontaneous, but who cares, we did enjoyed! Especially Tham, she went berserk when Mr J was taking Polaroid pictures. Haha!

Well it started raining cats and dogs after the concert. We were supposed to look for the right bustop to head home, somewhere along the way, we heard people screaming. Being the curious us, we rushed over hoping to get a glimpse of Mr J! and oh my oh my.

HE didn't APPEAR. I'm dots. I haven't been doing this 'star' chasing thing for agesssss. HAHA. I can't believe it, that I was trying to squeeze with a few other young girls trying to catch a glimpse of Mr J.

Nonetheless it was FUN. Left the concert as a really satisfied girl. Hee. I saw my unimate Spencer there too. Haha. Small world.

Lastly,

I'm here to announce: for the next two weeks, Jason Mraz's songs will be on REPLAY on my list.

Changing hp soon. WHEEE! What shall I get?