The end or a new beginning???????????????

It is here AGAIN.

All the preparation, all the CLEANING (I cleaned so MUCHHHHH this year!), all the anticipation.. Just for that few days of celebration. Just like how the celebrities feel, behind the spotlight and glamour, when they are all by themself in their little corner, they feel the LONELINESS that no one else can understand. ( I know it's abit dramatic but I know you get the DRIFT).

It's like that for new year. All the clothes buying, the red packets, the endless mj-ing sessions (thats ALL I like about cny.), the cleaning, the preparation. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRR. For that 2 days. Now it's so hard to pack my partying mood and go full gear into studying. and on top of this, CNY this year is in JANUARY. (normally its in Feb) So it's like even b4 I FEEL the new year, it's already OVER.

So like what my title suggest. I'm thinking hard what kind of mentality I should use to face this. Otherwise I have a feeling I'll sink into some emoing, sad mellow mood which totally doesnt help when my PRELIMS and EXAMS are on the wayyyyyyyyyyyy.

Ok. I chose A new beginning. (NO PRICE FOR GUESSING THE ANS). Haha I have always been a driven person. I motivate myself to achieve whatever thats coming along the way. I have my aspirations, my dreams to fulfill! Besides, I don't see any damage effects in looking on the bright side. Motto: Always look on the bright side! (as much as possible) I'm READY. so bring on the books n notes!!

(abit high at the moment, must be the calories in the pineapple tarts working its effect)

a side note:

Throughout the new year, other than all the merrying, there's things going on that I just couldn't get over. On new year's eve, went for the movie love matters with teng n cousins. Supper-ed at coffeeshop opposite punggol park, I saw this old grandma selling tissue paper at 3AM. T.T That's saddening. And and and, there's this guy in the states, after killing his wife and 5 children, he commited suicide. 7 KILLED in total. Just because both the man and wife lost their job. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz. I just want to say, perhaps when we are enjoying ourselves, taking whatever we have for granted. We really should notice what that is going on around us and treasure them. TREASURE.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HUAT AR!

MAY I win more in mahjong!

May I lose weight successfully!

May I score well in Prelims and exams!

loves,

FJJ

Happy niu year!!

First of all,

HUAT ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

Personally, I don't usually gamble. This goes out to everyone who does! Other than having a big windfall at the table, this wishing also goes to other areas. In work, RELATIONSHIP, personal relationship.... EVERYTHING.

2009 hasn't really seep in only till NOW. To me, a whole new year don't really start till it's chinese new year. Hahaha... So in total, I make two resolutions per year. Once on 1st Jan, and another time nowwww.

There's no clear define goals this year, it's change to a motto, to an approach I want to use to face the new year. It's clear now that I'm 21 this year (well, although now in another 5 more human months), I want to be responsible, to be sensible, to have a fresh start. To excel in whatever that's possible. To build on personal relationships, with friends, with my family, on a more intimate level and not the hi bye kind. I want to treat everyone with sincerity. To be passionate in whatever I'm doing. (well, I'm always PASSIONATE!!)

You get the drift, basically, it boils down to one simple slogan:

A FULFILLING LIFE!!

I'm so full of positive vibes I can't help it. HAHAHAHAH

There are of course sad moments, but I always tell myself, what's more important is that I learn how to rise up after that gloomy period. :))))))

CNY have been a great start! For the past few days till cny eve, I have been doing major cleaning. Never in my life have I been so hardworking. Haha. Even my cool mama is so shocked by the sudden change. Every inch of my room was cleaned, its now so cleannnnnnnnnnnn!!!

I'm ALLERGIC to dust, I love house cleaning. (ironic isn't it?!)

Well I was really afraid that we wouldn't be able to eat as a family. My brother's working till 8pm and my dad last minute need to go back to work. I'm amazed at how things always turn out well in the end. :))))). my bro's back on time, and my dad was back early!!

After our dinner, I went out with my dearest cousin Li teng, yiqi and their cousins! All the tings n qis: Jing ting, shao ting, gen qi, jian qi, hui ting, Irene. Haha. We watched Love matters. At first I didnt carry much anticipation for the movie. Boy I was wrong. It was hilarious and at the same time, it brings out some true blue topics that's close to us. Something that we can FEEL. This is a the work of Jack Neo, his style of making movie. THUMBS UP!!!

ok . It's 5AM and I'm still awake. I need to be out of the house at 9.30 actually. That means less than 4 hours of sleep.

hitting the bed. ( my new floral bedsheet :))))) It's floral floral and more floral baby!)


loves,
FJJ

Way back into 2004

Date: 23 Jan 2009

It's always times like this that I TRULY miss my days as a student, as a student with UNIFORM. This morning, I was taking a bus to school at 7.30 and I see kids (notice I use the word kids now, it means I have TRULY recognise the fact that I'm 21 like a full fledge adult now), yes I see kids in uniform from Monfort slowly, lazily making their way to school. I saw other kids along the way too, some clad in chinese costumes, cheong sum etc.

This brought me back to my school days. In 2004 I would have been enjoying my graduation year, my last cny celebration in amkss. It was half day, which means celebration ONLY. We would just sit in hall for the performance and all the cny songs singing and later we would receive goodies from our form class teacher. and after that, usually me and friends we'll head for TOWN. Just to hang out then go back home for tuan yuan fan.


AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. I miss those days! Those carefree days.


There I was, thinking about all this on the whole journey of bus 74. How unwilling I dragged myself to school for POA. Luckily lecture ended earlier.

But dang, I have EVENING class tomorrow. T.T Who have lecture on a saturday evening, 3.30 to 6.30 like 2 days before CNY?!

BLEHHHHHHHHHH.

Yu sheng

this was written a while ago, I forgot to publish it. So here you go!!!

It's the time of the year again!



I always look forward to Chinese New Year, (other than the red packets i'll be getting), there's also the YU SHENGGGGGGGGGGG!



I love the taste of it. How unique. The vegetables, the sweet plum sauce, the pok pok, the SASHIMI and all other condiments. When mixed together, it forms a sweet sourish after taste.

Being only interested in the subject itself, I never question how this dish came from and it seems to be unique only to Singaporeans.



so ta-da!



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yusheng



I had two yushengs already... still counting down!



ok im real tired.

SO agitated and angry for no apparent reason. HAHA!

I was telling ah neh and hon the past few days, about the frenzy over the exposed photos of ziyi and her fiance vivi ( isn't this such a cute name?!)

Well some of their acts were abit DOTS. But HELLO! it's people's privacy you know. Come to think of it, there's no big deal. I'm sure, going nude on beaches in the western countries is a real common thing.

People just want to take a break and be with their love ones and there you have these people snapping away. DOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Perhaps it was the fact that she's an asian, frm CHINA to be particular. I think there are anti campaigns her now, in her OWN COUNTRY. faints

But again, it's none of my business that all of this took place right? They could have done it more discreetly perhaps in a CLOSED enclosure.

so you see, why should I be so agitated?!


I have no reason to explain this except that it's


PURE RANDOM.


LALALALLALALALALALALA


love,
FJJ

Reviews: Yesterday.sg

I always frequent this website, one favourite of mine, an attempt to find out more about Singapore. That there's more to this small little dot than the "clean and green city" that we are always known for.

2 things to share:

The changi chapel & museum : http://yesterday.sg/detail/reconnecting_quilts_at_the_changi_chapel_museum2/

I went there once when i was younger, perhaps when it just opened. I didn't have much memories of the place except for the fact that I've been there.

I didn't know of the wonderful stories behind this place. About the singing quilts and the wall drawn by one imprisoned artist. I was never a fan of WW2 nonetheless history. But this one draws me, I have this urge to visit the museum.

Will schedule for a trip soooon!


Hum Jin Peng of Maxwell Food Centre:
http://yesterday.sg/detail/a_tribute_to_maxwell_food_centre_hum_jin_pang/

I've been to this food centre a couple of times when I was working at my previous job. But boy! I've never notice this show. *faints* Actually I'm not really a hum jin peng person, it's their perseve and the rain-or-shine-i'll-still-be-open spirit that attracted my attention.

I always feel that there's more to it than the food itself, it's the effort and thoughts that the people put in while preparing their food. Like the uncle, how he opens his shop even in public holidays. Working rain or shine, day in day out even when he's real old. The bond he shares with his regular customers, the faith that he have in you that he allows u to diy yourself.

I simply love it. It somehow injected in some human touch, humanistic and warmth into the world we are living in. You should see how some of the people in food court handle their food, as if we owe them money or something. Hmph!

ok! will make a note to go maxwell food centre. SOON. this week perhaps. HAHA

Review: Born in Brothel

This documentary was something that I've always wanted to watch since I knew about it. But was having exams at that point of time, soon i've totally clean forgotton about it. It was recently when hui, my childhood friend brought it up again. That I FINALLY went to check it out. It was totally WORTH all the trouble. :)

It's about this female photographer who went to Calcutta's red light district. She wanted to shoot photos of the prostitutes there, she eventually got closer to the kids there. Most were bron in brothels, generations after generations who were all prostitutes. T.T She wanted the children to have a skill and hence taught them photography using 2nd hand, pass-me-down cameras. Looking at the world from a different point of view. Some of the kids had the most amazing pictures you even seen. Avijit is my fav! He's paints really well and have gotton prizes for it. Had an eye, knack for beautiful things. He took many wonderful pictures. He was even selected by an International Organisation to represent India in an International camp for kids, where they are exposed to many different kinds of photographs, picking up new skills at the same time. Avijit initially had difficulties going overseas to Europe as the india government wouldnt want to grant him a passport due to his background. It was after much trouble by the female photographer that he finally got his passport. Avijit was later even given a scholarship to study in the states. (Ithink its states la.. don't remember. haha) He's going to pursue either medicine or photography in uni soon!

Go check it OUT!

loves,
FJJ

Bite me! Bite me won't you?

YESsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

I'm so addicted to the Twilight series. (even before reading it, haha)

Not the movie but the actual series by Stephanie Meyer. (well although the on screen Edward did attracted me that tiny bit.)

I'm thankful to dearest HON too. She bought Twilight and New Moon!
Suddenly, I just can't wait to see her. HAHA! opps.


loves,
FJJ