HUNGRY

this always happens in the middle of the night..

H-U-N-G-R-Y

u know.. i must put on ALOT of fight to resist myself to temptations.. as u know.. my house's like a MAMA shop where there's food everywhere ONCE i step out of my room, my comfort zone...

oh MANNNNNNNN.. gxw.. i cant resiste the tempt... just a GLASS of milk.. or that choc cookie.. ONE will do...


stil hungry. T.T


loves,
FJJ

:) day

WOOHOO! meaningful saturday spent.

woke up at 12(AS USUAL :P)... dim sumed with mom at somewhere near my pri sch.. going there brought back lots of memories.. its been nearly 7 years since i stepped into that area again.. haha.. memories of me in the blue sailormoon uniform.. dashing to this cafe beside my sch for lunch... it became a hot spot for me n my friends... we were REAL SAD when it closed down... the aunty was so cute... a few mths later.. she send me a photo of us, when we took it in her cafe. hee.. how i used to run all about in that uniform of mine.. i'm real PROUD of that uniform! well ok... digressed... it was a nich lunch.. i haven had a meal with my mom for AGES.. haha...

then it was to KBCC... it was the kids read session... looking at how the volunteer interacted with the kids.. draws me back to 15years ago, when i was still in my kindergarden.. i just cant help but totally got engrossed in the whole story telling session... haha... brings back the child-likeness in me.. not that im SUPER OLD LA... haha.. its just a FORGOTTON feeling.. where the world then was just filled with daily afternoon naps, singing nursery rhymes, arts n crafts and of tom n jerry cartoons.. ok.. DIGRESSED again.. hahahaha.. ok the theme was on mouse.. so we read a bk to the kids about mouse, did arts and craft on that too.. i went around helping the kids... amazingly.. i realised.. given the same materials.. the kids can come out with differnt variations of mouses.. some are thin, some are fat.. ears are higher and even the whiskers.. haha..

that just reminded me of my previous post, where people actually view things differently... different perceptions...

ok.. NEXT... i was really tired after the kids read session... but i cant wait to meet my cousins! ok.. this is a urm... unique relationship.. all the 4 of us.. we are realated to this cousin of mine.. but different side.. i'm from the maternal side of my cousin teng.. while the other 2 are from her paternal side.. childhood frens.. know each other for more than.. 7 years... haha.. WOW... i didnt realise that myself too.. i love the gatherings.. hope for more to come!! steamboat, botak jones or even K-BOXING!

FEASTEd recently.. GOSH... haha.. time to go on diet again! 2 more kg to my desired wt.. hee...

today.. my mom told me.. the coffeeshop oppo my old house is undergOing renovation as of monday.. hence tml is the official last day for their operation.. my heart aches.. haha.. suddenly, its like another of my childhood memory vanishing... not that its not GOOD to undergo training... haha.. but it's juz going to be different aft that.. the next time we see the coffeeshop will be one year later... i used to go there alot when we were still staying in amk 10years ago.. there's this noodle stall that i always frequent.. and i will always have the same thing.. mee kia.. i totlaly LOVE IT... with lots of ketchup... haha.. i still rmb the uncle. i think he's not around like a couple of years ago le.. closed the shop i mean.. oh and the wet market.. how i used to go to the mkt with my mom... n the western stall that we used to have at... and previously, we used to go to the wet mkt to purchase mandarin oranges during cny..even after we have shifted over...

but well.. not too good to dwell on the past.. ok .i don't totally live in the past K.. hee.. i try to preserve whatever memories i have... and at the same time.. is earnestly looking forward to the future... what plans god have for me... hee.. MOVE on...

ok.. enough... dancing tml! with HHN.. hee... in the ohsoeverpopular B's class...

lastly... saw this off my friend's friendster... quote of the night:

LOVE all,TRUST few,sorry to no one.. :)


loves,
FJJ

half empty or half filled?

Recently, one of my mom's friend asked when is my major exams.. i say its in may. he say:" not to worry, you have two months MORE!".. i say:" NOPE.. i have two months LEFT...."

there's a vast difference in this two answers u see..
like the title suggest.. if there was a glass infront of you.. do you see it as a half empty or half filled glass?


well.. this question has been in my head for the longest time..

this got to do with one's perception.. how they actually view things... in a pessimistic or optimistic viewpoint.. and all these are actually affected by alot of factors.. like the environment they are living in, perceptions instilled into them from their parents, circle of friends and maybe even current affiars going on in the world..

take for example.. how one handles a situation.. the pessimistic pple just picture the WORSE scenario, think of all the negative things that will take place and happen.. feeling that its the END of the WORLD.. while the optimistic pple, strong believes there's still HOPE.. they love this word.. and feel that even if there's juz a teeny weeny tinge of hope.. they still want to try.. they feel that things will turn out for the good...

i think i am a half filled person..haha..

how about you out there???






p.s i'm aching all over from dancing today.. it was tiring but enjoyable. i just the feeling i have with HHN bunch of friends.. they make me smile.. HAPPY.
i miss my sec besties too!! where are YOUR?!



loves,
FJJ

Hair-raising moments

ok.. i've FINALLY come to terms with it..

my dear prince william.. is balding.

he was previously this...

and now.. he's .... THIS

urgh!!! that certainly broke my heart.. to bits n pieces n fragments... OMTTTT!!

well.. i supposed.. he inherited this from his dad uncles charles.. haha...
Well.. ok.. it's more of a SHOCK element than SAD to me.. haha.. afterall he was ONCE my prince charming back in the primary and secondary school days.. hm.. he represent.. a part of my memory.. i still remember during my birthday, in sec 3 i think.. my clique of good friends bought his book for me.. i was OVER THE MOON.. haha...

but well... i MOVED ON after that... hee...

love,

FJJ

r-e-v-i-e-w

read yakuza moon recently.. in courtesy of my hon for lending the book to me.. hee.. (i recommended the book to her when we were at kino and she bought it the next day!!!!)

hm... bought an insight to how the lifestyle of a yakuza could be... btw, if im not wrong.. yakuza in japan refers to gangster.. haha.. it's something like how we call the gangsters here as ah bengs etc.. how drastic her life has become ever since her dad accumulated debts.. the countless failed relationships she had and the pain she suffered from all the beatings. how she overcome all this and work towards a better life after all she came through.. it might be just another typical inspirational story to some.. but somehow to me.. it has that ability to keep me going.. to reach till the last page, not wanting to put it down.. haha.. guess i'm curious to find out about the ending.. how she would become.. i love the tatoos on her body.. if im not wrong.. its a full length body tatoo... each tatoo represents a story, something for her to remember about the past.. it's something personal to her..

well as much as i love the tatoos on her.. i don't think i will get one at all.. considering that im such a FICKLE MINDED person.. i think i might just get sick n tired of the tatoo after some time and it would be too late to regret.. ARHAHAHHAA

watched 10 000bc yesterday with gupi,karl and two of karl's cousins... i always thought vivo's GV's cinemas were not bad... or perhaps it was juz the particular one that i went to.. the seats were too high for me.. i normally like to slouch in a semi lie down position to watch movie...haha.. n it don't help much when we were just sitting in the 2nd role.. haha.. but since its complimentary tickets.. i shall not complain further.. hehe...

the movie was great.. i give 3/5.. reminds me of 300.. where it was mostly about heroic actions.. standing up for the ones u love and your country.. haha.. the other reason i like the movie was of course mainly due to the leads... D'leh, acted by Steven Strait is CUTE! the female lead too.... Evolet (Camilla Belle).. she have such LOVELY sparkling blue eyes!! for the sake of my dear friends... here's the link to info bout this movie: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/10%2C000_BC_%28film%29.. the only **** side bout this movie was the humour part..haha. although it was pretty funny.. it doesnt suit the atmosphere then... but overall i still like the movie.. hehe...

my previous movie was meet the spartans... that was a TOTAL WASTE OF MONEY for me.. haha... so this movie definitely made me felt better.. hee... (doll dun kill me!)

ok..recently i have so much inspirations and things to blog on... i shall update them when im free..


loves,
FJJ

TABS.

Yesyesyes... know i shouldnt be here now.. haha.. i just had a tough battle with micro econs.. nearly tore the bk into BITS and PIECES..

impatience.. i realised.. over the years, people's patience grew lesser and one of the main trigger is the advance of technology.. so much things have been invented to ease the workload in our lives,to fasten the pace of what we are doing, and to some point, we are even able to multi task now.. smth which wasn't possible in the olden days.. like computers.. the version keeps getting more advance.. windows 93 to 95 to 98 to 2000 to XP and now VISTA. more functions to play with.. one thing to note is the window internet explorer.. in the past.. we can only open one window at a time, now with the creation of TABS... we are able to multi-task.. i could be blog-browsing, listening to online radio, searching for studies materials and do window shopping all at the same time.. not to mention, GOSSIPing in MSN with my friend... 5 things at ONE GO... this shortens or reduces the patience we have for things... our expectations grew higher.. like when we click a link.. we expect the screen to arrive at the website in miliseconds.. waiting for 10secs and above is considered REAL SLOW. i'm a victim of this too i must confess.. on average, when i open my internet explorer, i have more than one tab at the same time...

other examples includes instant gratification.. Macdonalisation globally, worldwide.. every Mac in all over the world selling almost the same food.. standardisation of uniform.. ( haha.. abit of socio here)... to the travelators u see, there's one at dhoby ghaut stn.. between the red line and purple line.. In the past, we just rely on WALKING... i try to avoid using that...

i felt... everything is moving in a real fast pace.. this is especially so in an urban city area like Singapore..alienation, dehumanisation is caused... like whenever im in a train.. i can at least see one person playing away on their PSP or pressing away on their hps... what happened to the most basic communication- talking face to face, letters, notes, hand written cards etc? i must admit tht its unavoidable to rely on msn,emails,sms or even phonecalls to relate to each other nowadays... what i feel is.. no matter what... we shouldn't let this communication break down.. not just indulging oneself in the cyber world.. in a fast moving society.. YES... we do need to work extra hard to keep up the pace... but no matter in what we are dOing.. we must strive hard to main communications with each other.. to at least preserve a tinge of human touch in this era of technolisation...


loves,
FJJ

taken for granted.

well i know i shouldnt be here.. at least not at this hour and this point of time.. haha..
but well.. lots of things have been running through my mind recently..

taken for granted.. i realised, most of us we tend to take things, take the people around us, even relationship with pple for granted. its just like.. we feel that whatever we need, or want to do, it would always be there for us.. this refers to chances, opportunities and even to people around us.. this is a common perception amonst many pple now..

but don't know why.. it has been rather obvious to me recently.. for example.. friendship.. is it because when we are too close to one person, or too shou2 with each other.. people start to take u for granted.. not explaining, cause they feel u will understand.. or, when they are in a bad mood, they tend to be more harsh towards u and after that, expects u to forgive them cause u know they are not in a good mood. well the list goes on and on and on and ONNNN... this is a ..hm... nasty situation u see.. it's not that people don't know u well enough or anything.. i do understand sometimes people do feel sad or whatever and it causes them to behave in this way... but i still believe there should be some minimal explanation and not juz take it as if nothing have happened... this is basic courtesy and respect towards your friends..

haha.. recently mich told me.. im ALWAYS living in the PAST.. i guess it's REALLY TRUE... i havent really discovered this part of me until recently.. like i have a keen interest in old monuments, articles about the past.. haha...

well.. haven't been too disciplined with my revision.. i must BUCK UP!

stop procrastinating.

and.. i found back my passion for dancing!! LOVE LOVE LOVE DANCING... hiphop,galshh,streetjazz to poppinglock and even jazz.. haha.. im really happy when im dancing.. it brings me lots of satisfaction and joy... and somemore.. its a BRILLIANT way to exercise and lose weight!!!

i must BUCK UP BUCK UP BUCK UP BUCK UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.....

i was talking to hon the other day.. and she told me.. i have the tendency to ask and answer my own questions.. arhaha.. again.. i didnt realised it... gupi always tells me this when we were in sec sch.. haha.. but i totally forgot bout it.. until hon mentioned it again.. i guess i really just need to VOICE OUT my thoughts so that i would be sure of wat im doing ba..haha...

lastly.. as i was packing my room the other day... i saw this pic of us.. all the 2/4s ... at esplanade rooftop.. all of us(well except popo,j n wc) were in the 2/4 HELLO black tee.. i saw the date.. it was back in 2003.. 5 years have passed since then.. so much have happened.. and we have all moved on.. haha.. some in uni, some working , some graduated from poly and some in NS..
despite all of this progress.. im real glad that i still hv my group of friends beside me.. my joy in my life.. hehe.. i love them to BITS!

ok pardon me for my randomness once again!! hehe...